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Friday, May 05, 2006

Sitting here at my radio show.
I have one person listening.
Im that one person.
I didnt feel like letting anyone know I have a show tonight.
Im not in a huge radio mood tonight.
Correction I have 2 users.
Yay? I guess.

Last week of classes.
Im actullay really undecided of what im going to do.
This summer.
This summer classes.
Next fall.
housing.
I havnt figured any of it out.

Correction I have 3 listeners.

But yea i dont want to be at home anymore.
Correction I dont want to be in Maryland anymore.
Chicago feels more like home.
w/e I need to quit bitching about things.
I hate reading through my friends list and all I can read is people bitching.
But i bitch constantly myself.
I like the shorts im wearing today.
they are totally rad.

I saw Against Me! and Alkaline Trio couple nights ago.
It was a very amazing show.
I had lots and lots of fun.
Alkaline trio played Goddammit from beginnign to end.
every single song.
then they played a 6 song acoustic thing.
then all their other hits.
2 hour set.
I love that band.
I do do do.

Im playing David Bowie now.
and Im on 2 users now
and Im really hungry.
I think ill go finish makin my pasta when I go home.
and see whose around and stuff.

oh on othe news.
Art Bash went very well.
I was really happy and proud of everyones work
you could see the start of something beutiful.
my piece was also well recieved.
which made me so much happier.
My 2D project is also really cool.
It goes with the art bash peice.
as a whole body of sorts.
Once i finish it.
ill put it up and stuff.

But yea.
Im happy and stuff.
But im coming home in two weeks.
which im not happy about.
I got a call today.
reminded me why i dont want to go home.
Same shit, same people.
things never change.
atleast in maryland they dont.



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Hot, Cool & Vicious
By Salt 'N Pepa
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Monday, April 24, 2006

So the past little while has been going pretty sweet. Just been busy with the school stuff I think. I could be making that up though. Some rather exciting things have happned in the past little while. I'll start from the top:

First Adult Movie:
I did my first professional "Porn" casue i got paid for it and such. It was a fetish video. Tickling fetish to be exact. I got tickled for 15 minutes and I got two hundread ($200) for it. It was kinda fun you know, knowing some random dude is going to jerk off to me getting tickled. Some people are bothered by it i guess but its very thrilling for me. I'm looking for more gigs though. I'll see what im gonna come up with but that definetly wont be my last. Its not like im gonna be a politician any time soon.

First Gallery Show:
I got into Artbash. Its the end of the year art show that you have to be juried in and such, in a actual gallery and such. Its not that big of a deal but I'm really excited about it none the less. I think only good things can come out of that. Plus its a nice thing to have in your resume and stuff. I had to fill out a form like to give a discription of my piece and in it was a question asking me if I was willing to sell my work and if so how much? I got really excited about that part and I was like woah! I pit the selling price for $500. Noone in their right mind would ever buy it casue its not all that but just the idea of it is so fukin amazing. For last years work check the link:
http://www.artic.edu/saic/new/exhibit/artwork/displayimage.php?album=5&pos=3

First Time Chanelling My Native American-ness:
Today I did a photoshoot for milkshake. I got to be a native american. (Not Indian). I had lots of fun. I like chanelling things. Here are samples:





P.S. We Win!

Classes Next Year:
The Plan is for next fall I will take the following classes. Hopefully I will get into the photo class since It needs a pre-requisite but im trying to get out of it.

Art History: Survey of Ancient to Modern Art
Research Studio II
English: On the mark/ Off the map
Color Photo
Artist Books

Im really really excited about the artist book class. Like really. Yes!
And the color photo one too, but i need to know if I got into it first.

Summer Plans: 
Hopefully I will be in Germany for a month over the summer since it didnt work out last summer, and the summer before that....but since it hasnt happned in two years, I dont have my hopes up at all. But yea that will from May 20th to like June 12th. Then I will come back up to Chicago to hopefully start my summer classes. Im not sure about any of these yet since non of these are still confirmed....but hopefully it will go as planned. Over the summer Im looking to take these classes though.

Screenprinting: Multi-level
Alternative printing for fabrics

Im excited about both of those. mmmmyes.

Life in General:
Life is superb. Which each day passing I realize more and more how much I enjoy just being in this city. I really dont want to spend anytime in gaithersburg this summer and it seems like I wont be. So that is all superb. There is a street sweeper outside sweeping the streets. I think that means I should maybe try to get some sleep. I have alot of work to do tomorw. I have to go instal my piece in the gallery and write a paper. So yay! This has been a happy post. I like these alot. I havnt had one in quite some time.

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By The Mars Volta
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Sunday, April 02, 2006

So I was bored the other day and up early and started reading my old xanga enteries from 2+ years ago that I realized how much I actually put into this thing. with this in mind I decided to start updating this if only to have a record of my own public thoughts. Even if that means im just going to cut and paste from the el jay. so here we go:

This week and some been crazy.
Went home on thursday.
Saw people.
Enjoyed their company(ies).
I didnt really feel welcomed though.
I dont know what being welcomed is or what i mean by that.
I do know that all the things I thought about being needed and such are way too childish and immature.
I think my head was getting too big,
I had forgotten that I need people.
people dont need me.
I did sink in though how much more accepted i am for who i am in chicago rather than in maryland.
Its all the little things.
Being in Chicago, it made me forgot that what it felt like to be constantly insulted.
That all changed within the first 3 hours in maryland.
To be honest, I tried so hard to miss everyone back home.
but I didnt. I missed him, him, her, her, him and them.
and thats it. and i didnt even get to see him.
I know im a horrible person, its ok, in time that wont bother me that anyways.
that again is feeling all too familiar.
the whole not-missing people feeling.
Reference back to may 8th, 1998.

I started getting panic attacks again.
I had a relative serious one about 45 minutes ago.
I missed those.
not in a good way though.
The same way i missed getting insulted.
that way.
thats besides the point though.

Im just happy to be back here.
Im happy to have had bethany here with me.
Bethany Im sorry if it wasnt all you thought it would be.
Maybe it was. I dont know.
Tell those things inside you that give you funny feelings of emptiness and non digestion to go suck their own cock.
That'll cheer up your moods i think.
its worth a try.
I really enjoyed our conversation last night though.
I needed it.
and I think you did as well.
Plus I missed being able to talk to you.
about things, and people.
To be honest that was the first time I had talked to anyone about how I really was in a very long time.
Way before I came back from Iran an empty shell.
O and all the kids here said goodbye.
I only wish we had taken more pictures. 
P.S. now that your not here our bathroom doesnt smell like girls anymore which is not fun. girls smell nice.

School is on the home strech now.
Only 6 weeks left.
It seems like Im staying in Chicago over the summer.
Ill go back to maryland a couple times most likely.
To see the above mentioned people.
I've realized how many people I have just cut off in my life time.
So many people who Im just a memory to.
If even that.
I dont know why i do that.
But i dont want to be just a memory anymore.
casue people usually have terrible memories.
false realities.
that sort of shit.
I guess I just got to get use to people changing and moving on without me.
No matter how uncomfortable it makes me feel. 
























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By Iron & Wine
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Breaking News.

This shit is dead.

for the time being.

Im moving all my shit to live journal.

so i can be less of a schizo in this field.

plus all the people still updating xanga are complete douchbags.

as in you guys are morons.

so imma jump ship before i drown.

payce out.

want my live jounral?

find it then.

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XO
By Elliott Smith
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Friday, March 03, 2006

this cancer is making the comeback of the century.

i kinda want to puke blood.

just casue i think itll look kinda cool

and then maybe my thraot will feel better.

there is so muc i want to say but i dont have the time to say it.

imma go and watch indiana jones and eat morningstart burgers.

this collge life is pretty fukin intense.

not.

its really chill.

ill update more.

later.

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Colour the Small One
By Sia
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